I'm gonna get a new Xanga. When I get it I will put a link up. I dont want anything to do with the word Collide or anything like that. yeah...

EDIT:: HERE IS IS:: so_Vogue

Currently Listening Ray of Light By Madonna Power of Good-bye see related

Lyrics to Name by the Goo Goo Dolls

And even though the moment passed me by
I still can't turn away
Cause all the dreams you never thought you'd lose
Got tossed along the way
And letters that you never meant to send
Get lost or thrown away

And now we're grown up orphans
That never knew their names
We don't belong to no one
That's a shame
But if you could hide beside me
Maybe for a while
And I won't tell no one your name

And I won't tell em your name

Scars are souvenirs you never lose
The past is never far
Did you lose yourself somewhere out there
Did you get to be a star
And don't it make you sad to know that life
Is more than who we are

You grew up way too fast
And now there's nothing to believe
And reruns all become our history
A tired song keeps playing on a tired radio
And I won't tell no one your name
And I won't tell em your name

I think about you all the time
But I don't need the same
It's lonely where you are come back down
And I won't tell em your name

I <3 him soooo much

Currently Listening Can't Get You Out of My Head Part 1 By Kylie Minogue see related

so... falling for him as hard as I have... is showing it's effects... but most of them are ones I've never had before... so... besides the fact he's all I think about... there's also the ones where I sit here and wonder... if in the end... I'm going to end up... hurt or something... but like... I feel like I'm overreacting... if only... I didn't have bad past relationships... I wouldn't have these feelings... I am always going to have the doubts because... of all the shit that happened to me in the past... But... with him... I for once... let the guards down... was pretty much myself... and... felt so great... and now that he's not here... I feel like I did before... I hate distance... I hate it... I hate how I find the one that makes me feel so great && lives away from me... like 2 1/2 fucking hours away... But I shouldn't be complaining... I could have it worse... and I will be able to go see him when ever I can actually... because I am getting my liscence on Tuesday... and a job soon... hopefully... && I tell him that I am going to do everything in my power to make him happy && everything... and I mean it... and if that's sacraficing a lot to come and see him... then that is how it will be... I'm serious... I wont give a fuck how much gas is... or anything... the only thing that I will care about is being able to see him... and look into his eyes... and know that I have found the one... that means the world to me... and knowing he's the one that makes me feel like I'm in heaven... and knowing that with him... I am the happiest person in the world... and I guess it's those things that kind of get to me... because... I'm scared to loose him... because I really dont know what I would do if I ever lost him... He's the first one... I have fallen this hard for... he's always on my mind... he's the one I see in all of my dreams that are with the person that means everything to me... the person use to be blurry... but now I can see him... as clear && complete as this monitor in from of me... and... that's never been like that before... and just knowing that... Makes me relize that what I have right now... is the best thing in the world... and thats knowing... that I have the person that makes me sooo happy && makes me feel 100% complete... He's everything to me...

I <3 him so much... he's the reason I wake up each morning, the reason I actually feel complete, and the reason I can smile without any reason for doing so...

Currently Listening Something to Remember By Madonna Take A Bow see related

so yeah... I'm bored... so I am going to update. lol. So... lets see... nothing has gone on today... I'm at home with my brother because my other brother && my dad is in Emporia again today for his stupid soccer tournament... and my mom is at work... but anyways... so yeah tonight... i have to go to church... GAG... I wonder what I will contradict with them tonight... hmm... lol... I hate going to that damn church thing... it's rather pointless I'm leaving the church after I get confirmed in April anyways... so I really don't get why my mom is making me go... but w/e... lol... so yeah... then tomorrow <<Monday>> I have no school... because its like some teacher work day... and then Tuesday I'm not going because I am getting my Lisence and then I am going to go to the insurance place for reasons I'm still unclear on... and then... around 3 I get my hair cut... yay...!... lol anyways... so... I need to clean my room and do my laundry.... lol... so I think I'm gonna do it... so laters!

I <3 him more then anything else in this world.

Currently Listening Take off Your Pants and Jacket By blink-182 Stay Together for the Kids see related

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I miss him... <3